An unforgotten crushI still can feel the burning stings that were inflicted 5 months back, its like not being sure of your self and also whats happening around you.Ill be coming back from school seeing couples holding hands and exchanging their day's experience, with me standing there wondering what it must feel like to do so.I'm 18 have 2 rejections under my belt, never had a gf, never had a date, and has screwed up his first attempt on O'lvls. To me my life seams a lot like a train wreak one after another.You know I have decided to take the dating game like base ball, I've got strike 2, strike 3 and Ill give it up all together. Problem is I don't dare to take up the last swing, I'm afraid my heart just wont be able to take it.If I ever get into a relationship, I only get into it if I can see my future with that person and not some fling to pass the time . My goal in a relationship would be to eventually spend my adult life with that person.Its kinda funny, when you like a person you get so attached to them that even when they don't want you around them its hard to let go, and when you think of them the only thing you want for them is for them to be happy even if it's without you.I wrote this story about the last person I feelings for.(havent finished it yet)I never will forget the day I saw a dream walking. Her name was (cant revel name). Her long and wavy hair cascading down her shoulders caressing her back, with a smile beneath two twinkling eyes making anyone who received it feel very special.
While her physical beauty was astounding it was her invisible beauty I shall always remember. She really cared about people and was an extremely talented listener. Her sense of humor could brighten your entire day and her wise words were always exactly what you needed to hear. She was not only admired but also genuinely respected by members of both sexes. With everything in the world to be conceited about she was extremely humble.
Needless to say she was every guys dream especially mine. I got to walk her to the bus and even got to eat lunch with her. That day the sunset in raining streams of crimson gold.
I would think “if only I could have a girlfriend like (name), Ill’ never look at another girl again” but I figured that some one this outstanding was probably dating someone far better then myself. Even if I was the Vice chairman of the English Language Society and a member of the Prefectorial board I knew I dint stand even a ghost of a chance.
Day after day I pondered of if I should tell her my feelings and how I felt about her, but as usual I would brush these feelings away and considered them part and parcel of daily life.
It may have taken a year but I finally plucked up the courage to go and talk to her and tell her how I feel but cold feet caused me to back out.
To my horror one day I found out she was going to (country) to further her studies. I was petrified just by the thought of not being able to see her again. There was just one way I could see how I could change the invertible, to tell her what I had been keeping to myself for the pass few months.
Every time I wanted to tell her, something would always prevent me. It would always be a friend coming by or some how she would vanish only to reappear with a huge bunch of friends, which I din’t want to embarrass myself in front of.I prolonged telling her as long as I could
Name:Leslie
Be closer to God♥
Age: 20
If you know me you will know this info
--------------------------------------------------------------------------
Msn:Razgriz
--------------------------------------------------------------------------
..::Top 3 favorite songs::..
I can only imagine(mercy me)
Blurry(puddle of mud)
High(lighthouse family)
--------------------------------------------------------------------------
..::My best friend::..
Keith
--------------------------------------------------------------------------
...::+My Favorite Stores+::...
OF Mice And Men
--------------------------------------------------------------------------
==**Can't live with out**==
¤God
¤Family
¤Friends
¤Music
¤Love of friends and family
¤♥Passion for Jesus Christ♥
-------------------------------------------------------------------------
{♫}My Wishlist{♫}
Love and care from others
Be less Emo
more friends(more friends is aways good)
Quote: We guard out hearts preciously and give it away so cautiously, Some hearts are crystal among glass and shatter ever so beautifully
Abby(Church)
Afina(TP/wake boarding)
Andrew(Church)
Bear(5B/BDS)
Charis(Church)
Denise(TP/Wake boarding)
Faridah(els/BDS)
Geri(ELS/BDS)
Grace Oh(BDS)
J.C.(Church)
Jessica(TP/wake boarding)
Jia Min(HC/DAS camp)
Josh Goh(Church)
Josh Tay(Church)
Li Zhen(BDS)
Magdalene(BDS/ALW)
Nigel(TP/wake boarding)
Rimiko(BDS/prefects)
Sher Li(ELS/BDS)
Si Qi(Church)
.......
[[My Profile]]
[[My Website]]
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither your ways my ways" declares the Lord(Isa 55.8)
{♪♫♪}Leave me stuff{♪♫♪}
An unforgotten crushI still can feel the burning stings that were inflicted 5 months back, its like not being sure of your self and also whats happening around you.Ill be coming back from school seeing couples holding hands and exchanging their day's experience, with me standing there wondering what it must feel like to do so.I'm 18 have 2 rejections under my belt, never had a gf, never had a date, and has screwed up his first attempt on O'lvls. To me my life seams a lot like a train wreak one after another.You know I have decided to take the dating game like base ball, I've got strike 2, strike 3 and Ill give it up all together. Problem is I don't dare to take up the last swing, I'm afraid my heart just wont be able to take it.If I ever get into a relationship, I only get into it if I can see my future with that person and not some fling to pass the time . My goal in a relationship would be to eventually spend my adult life with that person.Its kinda funny, when you like a person you get so attached to them that even when they don't want you around them its hard to let go, and when you think of them the only thing you want for them is for them to be happy even if it's without you.I wrote this story about the last person I feelings for.(havent finished it yet)I never will forget the day I saw a dream walking. Her name was (cant revel name). Her long and wavy hair cascading down her shoulders caressing her back, with a smile beneath two twinkling eyes making anyone who received it feel very special.
While her physical beauty was astounding it was her invisible beauty I shall always remember. She really cared about people and was an extremely talented listener. Her sense of humor could brighten your entire day and her wise words were always exactly what you needed to hear. She was not only admired but also genuinely respected by members of both sexes. With everything in the world to be conceited about she was extremely humble.
Needless to say she was every guys dream especially mine. I got to walk her to the bus and even got to eat lunch with her. That day the sunset in raining streams of crimson gold.
I would think “if only I could have a girlfriend like (name), Ill’ never look at another girl again” but I figured that some one this outstanding was probably dating someone far better then myself. Even if I was the Vice chairman of the English Language Society and a member of the Prefectorial board I knew I dint stand even a ghost of a chance.
Day after day I pondered of if I should tell her my feelings and how I felt about her, but as usual I would brush these feelings away and considered them part and parcel of daily life.
It may have taken a year but I finally plucked up the courage to go and talk to her and tell her how I feel but cold feet caused me to back out.
To my horror one day I found out she was going to (country) to further her studies. I was petrified just by the thought of not being able to see her again. There was just one way I could see how I could change the invertible, to tell her what I had been keeping to myself for the pass few months.
Every time I wanted to tell her, something would always prevent me. It would always be a friend coming by or some how she would vanish only to reappear with a huge bunch of friends, which I din’t want to embarrass myself in front of.I prolonged telling her as long as I could